“The
visits to the chemist’s were constant and lengthy since in 1992 he was
diagnosed with a serious liver illness. At the opening speech of the 1999
Fiesta Mayor, Bolaño made a special mention to the chemist’s assistants: To the chemist’s assistants of Oms Pharmacy,
who always have a kind word for all.”
––Point 16 Ruta Bolaño
Part Six: The Living and Dead
My
last night in Blanes, I finally stumbled across the folkdance performances. I’d
been looking for the young dancers’ stage all week, but no one seemed to know
where to find it. Even their guardians, who I saw in the bar couldn’t explain
how to find the place.
And
then suddenly, there it was in a hidden courtyard behind city hall, the very
location where I believe Bolaño once opened a festival and thanked the pharmacy
clerks, who filled his prescriptions and treated him well.
With
intense uncomplicated pleasure, I enjoyed the performances. The Georgian youngsters
flitted across the stage in staccato rhythms of precision and grace while their
more elderly Turkish cousins seemed immune to such energetic displays. Instead,
the Turks demonstrated the pleasures of a simple step repeated often, a step
that could accommodate dancers of any age, infirmity, or ability.
Between
numbers, I let my eyes wander across the courtyard and up one of the
surrounding buildings where I spied a woman wearing a bra and underwear mopping
her terrace and smoking a cigarette. In some ways, she appeared as the dancers’
opposite because they crossed the stage in intricately embroidered costumes
with jewels sewn across sashes, while in other ways her simple movements mirrored
almost exactly what was happening below. The gestures of the stage were like
those of the farm––the planting of seed, the cutting of hay––a lot of it looked
something like mopping.
Plus,
beyond City Hall, the sun was setting, which lit up the square in the kind of golden
light that makes landscape paintings seem like dreamscapes. From a certain
angle, one could look upon all of it––the precious light, the woman on the
terrace, the international gathering of dancers––and believe the world a happy
and untroubled place.
Of
course, this was weeks before refugees of nearby war and poverty took to the
seas in increasingly alarming numbers. Many hoped to find themselves safely landed
in Mediterranean towns just like this one.
Knowing
what was to come and what had already happened, were some of the performances
ridiculous? Sort of.
More
than that, they were great. The troupe of Austrian men, in lederhosen, percussively
slapping each other’s asses while their director played the accordion; the
Armenian girls, in flowing chiffon skirts, lip-syncing romantic tunes in an
over-the-top manner owing more to modern televised singing contests than folk
dancing traditions of any nation; the young Macedonians lining up in a slow rendering
of peasant courtship. All of it mesmerized, including the final performance of
the night. A local troupe, who spun over the floor with olive oil bottles and bread
loaves held high overhead, created a human pyramid in celebration of the Catalan
nation.
Then
again, one didn’t have to look too far to see examples of what might give rise
to a Bolaño-like dark humor. A sharp-chinned man took the stage and was announced
as the program’s international director. He had a villain’s oily hair and stood
chest out, holding a clipboard in one hand the other balled into a fist; it
looked like he wanted to threaten someone or at least demand higher fees from
the parents.
During
performances, he stood just off-stage, where half the audience saw him berate
the show’s announcer, a woman with a newscaster’s honey-blonde hair and
non-committal professional smile.
To
me it seemed she was doing an excellent job, climbing the stairs between number
in dangerously high heels to compliment even the blandest performers, announce
the next group, and urge more applause from the crowd. None of it seemed to
please the director.
While
various children fluttered and spun on stage, he stood, inches from her face screaming
long sentences at her forehead. But she was unflappable. Yes, she looked at him
with dagger eyes, but otherwise offered no defense. It was as if she had an inner
clock, telling her in exactly how many seconds she would be free of him, the
stage dismantled, the chairs stacked, and performers and audience all returning
to their homelands.
I
couldn’t imagine Bolaño working the dancers into his fiction, but the off-stage
humiliation––that seemed about right. However, despite the heavy presence of
cynicism in his work, I find an almost intangible sense of human connection––its
importance and beauty.
Along
the Ruta and in my brief conversations with townspeople, I gathered that Blanes
had, indeed, loved Bolaño. The town extended to him a welcome and helped him create
a sense of home, one in which he felt comfortable enough to write some of the most
powerful literature of our time.
That
home didn’t depend on his talent nor literary fame; few, it seemed to me, knew him
as a writer. He lived in Blanes and made friends because of a shared appreciation
of drinking, and movies, and reading, and gaming, and families, simple things
that anyone could enjoy.
The
same uncomplicated bonds of kinship that imbue all of Bolaño’s stories (in
spite of their depictions of violence, failure, loneliness, and injustice) highlight
a belief in friendship’s importance and our common human purpose.
We
can detect (a Bolaño verb if there ever was one) that he hadn’t given up on
humanity. Everything truly awful about us––the way we ignore each other’s
suffering or even go out of our way to cause it––is contained inside an equal possibility
that we might just as easily extend mercy. In this way, Bolaño’s shout-out to
the pharmacy clerks, who treated him kindly as he faced illness and death, is in
alignment with his greatest literary works.
I
on the other hand, will only ever know him through his writing, which provides
an incomplete, likely false, picture of the man himself. Did I need to travel
6,000 miles to learn this? Apparently I did.
Once
again, I know it to be true––the writer is not the person. The person who
writes lands on the page part ghost, part channel, part remnant of overactive
ego and will. From such fragments the reader begins a collaboration, which
results in a living text made anew every time we open the book and read.